I just wasn‘t that into it. I don’t know where it went wrong, because it definitely isn’t a bad book. Somehow it just didn’t work for me. 

"If this world has taught me anything, it's that humans have no right playing pretend at being Gods." 

I absolutely adored this book with every fibre of my being; it made me laugh, it made me cry, it made me tense and on my toes, it made me feel so many emotions. Sometimes the world building and fight scenes were a little hard to wrap my head around, but only because there are mechas involved and I have little experience with them besides a single anime and so they are an entirely new and overwhelming, but equally fascinating. Genuinely, the world building was so so so fascinating to me, and I thoroughly enjoyed learning about their world and how it related to the characters.

I LOVE THE CHARACTERS IN THIS BOOK SO SO SO MUCH, esp Eris' crew; the found family element between those kids makes my lil heart so fucking happy.

which is why it broke me so much when Xander dies

I especially love Theo and Nova, and their entire dynamic just makes me laugh, and Xander esp when he

steals the eye from Jenny for Sona

that had me tearing up so much

Jenny was absolutely my favourite character, she made me laugh so much, I love her entire attitude and the way she just does not give a shit what people think, she just shouts at them and does whatever the fuck she wants bc she knows she can. Her dynamic with Eris is just perfect; the sibling bickering, but with real care and love underneath all that. 
And of course, I loved Eris and Sona so fucking much. I cant even articulate just how much and why I love them, but Gods, I loved them.so so much and seeing their trust build and grow and turn into care and love

Also thebending !!!! Wtf !!! Im so glad I waited until Godslayers to read it bc I wouldnt have been able.to cope

I absolutely fucking loved this book - I wasn’t sure if it was quite going to be a 5 star read for me but given how much I crieddd at the end I have to give it 5 stars 
Since this book is almost exactly 400 pages it was perfect for me to read 100 pages at a time - I originally read the first 100 back in November over thanksgiving break and then just didn’t get back to it for a bit cause of business and fantasy slump etc 
But I’m so so so glad I finally did and I desperately need the next/final book in the duology now 

I did enjoy Gearbreakers for the most part, but I like to focus on the bad and stating my opinions often comes off as roasting so here we go.
Also, I thought Milo could go die in a hole from page one.  :)

0.25 stars is being docked off for the amount of times characters were described as 'growling'. A Dark and Hollow Star got a pass in my mind because they were fae and it was stated that their throats were different and it was more of a threatening I'm-gonna-kill-you (I don't remember much actually) sound than a tone of voice or grunt of frustration, so yeah. But as far as I know, everyone's human (well, apart from the Pilots obviously, but let's ignore that). I just hate it when characters 'growl' or 'purr', we aren't cats.

Also, this book could've been way shorter. Like, I swear every paragraph was just Eris or Sona (why did Sona never use contractions, it really made everything feel choppy) complaining  about how bad Godolia was and how ✨angry✨ they were and how they'd do anything. Put that energy into developing the world and the side characters.

The crew! What a missed opportunity. Found family is by far my favourite trope, but I have standards and tend to only think of something as found family if it is truly god-tier. This was not it. I was disappointed. The only character I was interested in apart from Eris and Sona was Xander, and possibly Voxter but he wasn't really a member of the crew (Voxter has so much potential), but everything still felt so shallow and wasted.

Jenny was so annoying and I found her interactions with Sona so uncomfortable.

Juniper was an empty shell, I felt nothing whatsoever for Theo, Nova kind of felt like a cliche comic relief that wasn't even funny with nothing to her, and Milo was an insufferable and whiny straight boy (he probably would've been the love interest if the book wasn't gay and I'm so happy he wasn't).

 #JusticeForXander 

Xander was done so dirty. Justice for Xander. We didn't see his body, so I hope he's still alive. I still don't know why he didn't speak much, but way to kill off your only possibly semi-speaking or selectively mute character for shock value. And I didn't feel sad, because I didn't know much about him. I just felt frustrated at the author. But he was probably one of the least annoying characters. HE HAD SO MUCH POTENTIAL.
And the fact that he wasn't completely mute was seen as almost a relief? SOME PEOPLE CAN'T SPEAK WITH THEIR MOUTHS AND THAT'S OKAY AND YES YOU CAN BE SEMI SPEAKING BUT IT FELT LIKE THE STORY WAS SAYING 'OH, DON'T WORRY, HE'S NOT MUTE IT'S FINE' AND I'M LIKE I DON'T CARE BUT SO WHAT IF HE IS THOUGH I HAVE A FEELING HE WOULD'VE BEEN TREATED AS A PROP OTHERWISE AND I'M LIKE AAAAAAAA???? sorry. I'm annoyed. And probably overly sensitive. (Legendborn spoilers)

Also the characters' reactions reminded me of Whitty's death in Legendborn because it was supposed to be so sad but I was like 'I barely know you, you're just a name that pops up sometimes'.

I did like the prose and metaphors and poeticism and stuff but I couldn't tell the difference between Eris and Sona, but I also know it's really, really hard to differentiate first person perspectives.

The dynamic and romance between them was pretty good, imagine a kind of cyberpunk rebel dystopian thing, but Eris is Vi from Arcane and Sona is Caitlyn. 10/10.

Also this is definitely a case of the characters' lack of autism making them kind of unrelatable, how do they tell how someone is feeling and read expressions that well? Tell me your secrets please.

But the fight scenes were good, despite the fact that I still can't make my mind up on the morally grey decisions by the characters, and I kind of skim-read the last few chapters lol. I will get the next book, though, and the cover is amazing.

- i haven't read a lot of cyberpunk (have i read ANY?) but this was a treat
- and it's sapphic
- I think the book was too long for what it was, not a lot happened in 400 pages, it could easily have been shorter
- the found family element was great
- i liked the dystopian rebellion vibes, although i do think i needed more vitriol throughout
- i don't think i'd personally pick up the second book, just because i don't think it'll hold my interest, but this was a solid book

TWs: child abuse, blood, torture, vomiting, explosion, violence, gun use, fire, injury, death of child, death of parents (before book)

Tropes/themes/rep: rebellion, sapphic cyberpunk (bi+ FMCs and secondary FC), found family

UPDATE: moving this down to 1/5 stars

i think the worldbuilding really falls flat, especially the introduction of this 'religion' around the Windups and then it means absolutely nothing to the consequences of the universe other than one (1) vaguely pseudo-religious holiday that is more about a nation celebrating its might than anything.... also there are certain things that make it feel not at ALL centuries removed from our current culture. it's difficult for me to believe that this story takes place in a war-torn world where there's one all-powerful governing force that decimated its enemies, hundreds of years removed from our own time, while having the characters speak and behave like modern kids/teens while drinking hot chocolate and reading old romance novels (because i guess there aren't books anymore?).

additionally, i had several issues with the characters. i really feel like this tries to lay on the found family dynamic a bit thick, with a level of annoying hijinks that eventually lose their comedy and become bland and repetitive. milo was especially disappointing, because i was hoping for a much more nuanced reaction to eris' return to camp with sona in tow.... that did not happen at all. his reaction and the way his character is treated in the narration felt weirdly overzealous and then set up an entirely predictable subplot for this character, who becomes reduced to a two-dimensional draco malfoy-esque nuisance (my sincerest apologies for the hp reference, it was the only thing that came to mind to describe how i felt about this character and how he was framed by the story). he could have been sidelined so much better than he was in order to make way for the relationship between eris and sona. all the other characters, even eris and sona in some ways, suffer similar fates to being not fully-realized and complex characters. SPOILER INCOMING: i can't remember which kid it was, but one of them dies and i didn't really care at all or apparently even remember the kid's name. maybe he was the one that sat on the top of the bookshelf? who's to say? i shouldn't need to say this, but killing off a member of a found family group in something that is supposed to be a dramatic and pivotal moment should elicit more emotion than just, "oh. that sucks."

all in all, this book reminds me far too much of legend by marie lu, which i think is the much better story when it comes to both worldbuilding and character work.

Review to come