I was drawn to the title, and it did not disappoint, though some parts seemed a bit unrelated. The journey to queerness can be so confusing and take a lot of time, and Eleanor’s story was just one example of this.

I really enjoyed this book and found it very relatable for myself in my own journey of figuring out my bisexuality. I thought it was really clearly delivered and the illustrations complemented the writing well. There isn't much that I can say about this really but I think it is really easy to read and enjoy.

this was such a nice, quick read. i liked the art style and enjoyed getting to learn about the author's experiences in coming out. 

This was a good, readable and at times relatable graphic memoir (my first in this genre) and I did enjoy it. We follow Ellie Crewes as she recounts her childhood to adulthood and her coming to terms of coming of age and then coming out. As the title suggests, she highlights the certain times she knew she was gay (or more so told herself she wasn’t). 

Personally, I felt that the art style and drawings weren’t really that engaging and didn’t really add all that much to the story - i.e. I could have just read the text and probably had a similar reaction. I think this is mainly due to the simplicity of the drawings, suited more to a children’s book than a YA/adult-targeted audience, lacking emotion at times, quite repetitive and hard to distinguish who certain characters were due to their similarities. This isn’t a dig at Crewes’ talent which is far beyond mine, I just didn’t gain much from the ‘graphic’ elements of this ‘graphic memoir’ - evidently a major part. 

What I did like was how Crewes highlights the idea that coming out to yourself and truly understanding oneself is not a clear linear path. There are ebbs and flows with a general realisation that what you are is just that: what you are. Two parts that stuck out to me was when Ellie came out to her brother, later stating ‘TELLING HIM TURNED OUT TO BE EASIER THAN TELLING MYSELF’ - something I do feel is very relatable. Likewise, ‘I FEARED I HAD MISSED OUT ON WHO I COULD HAVE BEEN HAD I KNOWN EARLIER’ very much resonated with me and probably a lot of queer people having this sense of missing out on things because we had to hide away and/or suppress out true selves. The friendships and familial relationships in this book are nice, progressive and shows the power of unconditional love. I personally didn’t gain all too much from the story but it was well compiled, readable and the MC was very lovable, albeit at times doing things we (and she now) know weren’t what was going to make her happy - but we can’t blame her for this. 

A quick, easy read about the journey to self-understanding which isn't linear and isn't simple.

A very quick read with a lot of relatable themes. For a memoir, it just felt a bit sparse and rushed in places.

Also, the way people of color were drawn rubbed me the wrong way. Something felt really off about it.