This book was a breathtaking story on the struggles of chronic mental health and  girlhood, and how we can lose who we were and those we loved, without them ever really leaving. As someone who has had depression for a while, this book touched me deeply, I related to Ren and Cathy in both ways and I am proud of and those I am not. This was grotesque and raw, and the perfect meditation on the horrors of girlhood, mental health and finding who we are, and who we need to be.