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Fortunately, I checked some reviews and was prepared for the worst in terms of disgusting descriptions of bodies/plants/food/buildings...so I was damn near underwhelmed by how things actually played out. Quite confusing, almost as if the writer used repulsive language solely for the sake of sounding unique and appalling; came off as a bit pretentious to me. (I did listen to some of the creator's music and it is exactly how one would imagine it having read this novel. Very similar vocabulary, interesting stylistic choices in the production. Dare I say, I preferred it to the book, since the musical arrangement of the same topics are a lot easier to digest, I suppose.)
Reading this work was a highly uncomfortable experience; on the one hand, it hit a lil too close to home, on the other, exactly because everything depicted here was so personal, I felt like I shouldn't be witnessing it. The author dared to portray thoughts and experiences that most of us push into the back of our brains and I sort of respect that. 
The ending left me somewhat empty; I don't need everything spelled out for me but I couldn't help reacting like "that's it???" - so much build-up just to end in such a weirdly silent way.  

Of the characters I have to say I didn't necessarily like anyone; the main character remained a blank canvas, all the men were deplorable and the LGBT+ line left me wanting more.