A review by megnchzz
A Brain Wider Than the Sky: A Migraine Diary by Andrew Levy

5.0

As a 12 year old, I was diagnosed with chronic migraine and dealt with it almost every single day until I was 15. Those were truly the worst 3 years of my life so far and many of the symptoms and emotions that came with them made me feel even more of an outsider and crazy. This caused my self-isolation and I never spoke about what my darkest thoughts were. When I discovered this book-I was reading Oliver Sacks' The Man Who Mistook His Wife For A Hat where he mentioned A Brain Wider Than The Sky-my heart actually began to race when I read the summary where he mentioned the "almost Stockholm Syndrome-like attachment to the migraine." I had actually believed that I was crazy for almost wanting to hold on to the pain. I didn't understand that it was possible to be so accustomed to the pain that questions like "what would I be? Who would I be if not for this pain that I carried every day?" were completely normal. Similar to depression, which I now have either from a mix of migraine or genes but probably both, I embraced it in order to continue on and I held on to it so tightly that it eventually became an almost sadistic friend that I continued to miss after being away from them too long no matter how evil they were to me. I didn't understand that this was a normal occurrence until I read this life changing book. To be completely honest, now that I am past those years of migraine, my mind has blocked much of the experiences that I had due to them so reading this book was almost as if I was reading my own story that I had forgotten. When he discussed the clear euphoria he felt during or right after his migraine, I suddenly remembered once during a particularly bad migraine as I was jabbing my thumb into my right temple-always the right temple-to relieve the pain, I was thinking about life and it's meaning and suddenly it all became clear and I felt as if I had unlocked the secrets to the universe, no joke. I wish everyone who was close to me during these years, or anyone who is close to me, would read this book to understand what I had to go through and to understand how it has shaped me as a person. If I had the chance to change anything, I would only change the timing of reading this book so I knew for a fact that I wasn't alone and so I could understand this affliction better. The pain taught me my own will to live and perseverance and I would not be who I am today without that experience (wow can that sound any more cliché?). I still have migraine, and have more than I admit because of how minor they are compared to how they used to be, but after reading this book, my entire idea of it has changed and I understand so much more than I did before. Andrew Levy really did change my life with his thorough research as well as his own personal experiences and I would highly recommend this book to anyone, whether you are the migraineur, love a migraineur, or just seeking more knowledge on this interesting, yet not well known, affliction that affects millions of people worldwide.