I really really REALLY do not know how I feel about this book. 

The whole premise had me duped, from the start. I was confused, I was waiting for the other shoe to drop. But the time just. Kept. Going. 

About 60% of the way through,

when I realized that the MC was ACTUALLY going to end up getting together with her DYING BEST FRIENDS FIANCÉ WHO CLAIMS SHE IS THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE AND HIS SOULMATE

I about lost it. I had to set it down and do deep breaths. Like it happens

BEFORE BELLA IS DEAD YET!!! I GET IT THAT MAYBE YOU GUYS SLEEP TOGETHER OUT OF GRIEF BUT THIS IS BEFORE SHE HAS DIED AND YOU KISS IN THE APARTMENT THAT SHE BOUGHT AND RENOVATWD FOR YOU

. And there is absolutely no remorse. But she would never betray Bella right?!?!?!? 

Anyway

other than the insanity that is that plot line

I enjoyed the look at lifelong friendship. I do think that the two framings of Dec 15th were well done. And I appreciate the flip in perspective on it. The After section was good because tbh that was the direction I wanted this shit to go in about midway through anyway. Idk man. If I had the physical book and not my kindle, I might’ve thrown it