the ending of this book - has shocked me to my core. I am not okay, unwell, generally doing bad. If you are having any kind of bad day put this book off for a few years I am so serious. Do not read this book until book five comes out. because I am going to just be wandering into the abyss for about a year - I want to scream, and throw a tantrum and sob into my emotional support person's chest. I want to curl up in a corner and rock back and forth, I am so unbelievably not okay. thoughts and prayers.