I have lost control over everything, even the places in my head.

Thoughts upon finishing this book: Holy shit, holy shit, holy shit, what the fuck is wrong with people?" and I mean that in the best way possible. This book is so intense and suspenseful and it honestly reminds me why thrillers are one of my favorite genres. It's so hard for me to believe that this book is Paula Hawkin's debut novel. It is absolutely outstanding. The ending gave me chills.

This book is being compared to Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn and I do see a lot of similarities. I think this book was more quick-paced right from the very beginning, which I liked, but I loved both of these books equally. It had the same dark and gritty feel as Gone Girl, and it also shares the same idea of questioning what happened to this girl and who's to blame and where did she go? I absolutely love mysteries like this. We get to read from the perspectives of 3 females: Rachel, Anna, and Megan. Honestly, all three of these characters are completely fucked up and have a lot of issues, but that made it all the more fun to read. Our main protagonist Rachel is deeply depressed, she's also a pathological liar and a drunk alcoholic. It was interesting to read from her perspective because I never knew when she was telling the truth or when she was having her blacked-out version of the truth. The writing style of this book is on point, it is constantly suspenseful and there are several curve balls that I wasn't expecting (especially towards the end). I had theories throughout the entire book but I never got it right and I was so shocked while reading the final chapters of this book! I could not believe it. I thought I had a generally understanding of who all these characters are (or who they say they are) and then they turn around and do something crazy and unexpected and wow, you never really know who someone is behind closed doors. Even the nicest people can be completely insane. That's what I liked about this book is that every single character in this book was dark in their own way and had something to hide.

I think that Rachel, Anna, and Megan were all messed up in their judgement at some point but it didn't make me like their characters any less. This book easily goes down as one of my favorite thrillers ever. Right up there with Gone Girl and Into The Darkest Corner. I love shit like this. I can't wait to see what other stuff this author puts out there. I'll read anything she writes. :)