"Because you're mine just as much as you are his. You get that, princesa? You might've been Zak's first, but you've always been mine. You've always been ours."

I went into The First Deal nearly blind, and OH MY GOD. I DEVOURED Grave's first novel. I went in, knowing this was a rock star romance. And what we got was a gorgeous, gruesome, masterpiece.

I don't know a lot about Mexican folklore, so I was confused at times, and honestly should've researched before diving in head first. But I feel like I was able to get a better grasp of the legends as I read, which is a huge plus.

I totally felt bad for the guys, hearing their side after Stephani left the band and San Antonio "for good". They needed her, and she left. At times, I didn't like Stephani, but she proved herself in the end. The entire book, their relationships to each other, were very relatable, and reflected some in my own.

The combination of tropes, and genres was done so well; the dark romance, the folklore, the horror. Something you don't see very often, and Graves knocks it out of the park.

There's so many twists and turns and the CLIFFHANGER?

"I hate you." // "Then f*ck me like you hate me."

“All anyone’s gonna see is the shitty things you did in a moment of weakness, no matter how much good you do or how much you wanna make things right.”

tropes // love triangle, rockstar, paranormal, second chance, 

tw // blood, emeto, animal sacrifice, cheating, degradation, dubcon