I had to speed this up to 2x speed just to get through it and even then it was insufferable.

I spent the entire first half of the book trying to decide if I hated the writing style or if I hated the characters, and then when I decided that it's actually both, I spent entirely too much time thinking about if the author intentionally wrote the characters to be shallow and one dimensional or if that's the point since the book is in Julia's POV and she's shallow, overbearing, overdramatic, and annoying. But then I decided that it doesn't matter. I don't want to read a book with shallow, simplistic, childish writing regardless of the intent.

Julia's mother is a caricature of an overbearing, emotionally-abusive parent. As someone who grew up in an emotionally abusive, neglectful household I was hoping for some point of connection there, but there wasn't anything but aggravation. As someone who lost their sister randomly one night in a car accident, I was hoping for there to be some connection there, but it was just aggravation.

Julia spent the entire beginning, when we're at the funeral for her sister thinking about herself and shit talking her dead sister. Even if yall didn't get along, I can't imagine a personality trait that would make that make sense. Her "I'm better than everyone and everything" attitude was exhausting, the homophobia was disgusting.

I just simply did not have a good time with this book.