“It weighed on me and it was sometimes a pain in the ass, but the payoff could be big, too. So big it felt like gazing up into the sky. Or like looking out an airplane window at the ocean, with clouds shining above it. 
It was so gorgeous it almost felt like sadness.
Like the feeling you get when you realize that, in the grand scheme of things, your time here on this earth really isn’t all that long after all.”