Reading this book was like running a marathon and during the marathon a train wreck occurs at the side of the course and you can’t look away so you trip and fall and break your nose but you still have 25 miles of marathon left to run. 

Terrible grammar and syntax, bad spelling, I have no idea how this book was published. Dumb characters and plot. No plot, really. This book had potential, but instead the one huge event was

her best friend dying

and then ten pages later she just stops mentioning it like it didn’t deeply affect her. The two guys

Derek and Bryant

might as well have been the same person and constantly confused me on who was in the scene. Three guys total made things more confusing. Many of the quotes at the start of each diary entry made little sense and included their own spelling, grammar and syntax errors. There are only so many times a woman can read “excited” as “exited” before she starts to lose her mind.

I feel like if this book lived up to its back cover blurb, it would have been good. It had potential. If

Madison’s death by a drunk driver

was explored more, more specifically Kallie’s feelings about it and how it affected her, the victim’s family, and the community, we would have had some substance. Instead, Kallie drones on about all the guys in her life and how they disappoint her. Honestly, I wish Karen had been the main character. She seems like she’s had a rough go at life, what with

her mother dying

and

TW being date r*ped

plus she seemed like a nice girl and I would be more interested to read her diary.

This book being self published and seemingly not very popular makes me wonder how a copy ended up in such a big library. I’d call it a hidden gem but it’s more like a hidden lump of coal. Was somebody playing a prank on the public by making this book more widely available? The author was a year older than I am now when she wrote this. No offense, but even I could have done better.

I only powered through to the end because of the meager page count (<150). All in all, this book feels like the author published her personal diary only having changed the names around and called it a day. Where is the content warning for “graphic boredom?”

Update: took another .5 stars off because no matter how long it sat with me, my opinions only got worse.