I'm surprised by how much this book resonated with me, but at the same time there were things that just.. a big no for me.

first of all, what I liked and enjoyed the most were Tara' and Trevor's relationship. they started as friends, they didn't know each other but form a bond you could tell they know each other better than they knew themselves, even having their own close friends not even them could archive with each one such closeness. I love a good friends to lovers where, sure here they did thought the other one was hot, but there wasn't a constant reminder that they only wanted bc of physical attraction, they build a relationship, they build trust and confidence, they were friends first and foremost and I fucking loved it.
there's just something about a form of intimacy were physical attraction it's not there but you just KNOW to the core to it's soul the other person ugh I FUCKING LOVE IT.

I really liked tara, and I could relate a lot to her. she was a romance reader, and truly wanted to have that kind of love but the reality doesn't always resemble fiction and she struggled a lot. she was painted as 'intense' but you could see just how deeply she loved, and it broke my heart when she started doubting herself and realizing maybe she loved this strongly because she just wanted some crumbs of love–maybe her entirely self could get her scraps. (alexa play tolerate it by taylor swift)
on the other hand, she could be.. cringy at times. I mean who hadn't thought things as she did?? but to actually do it is something else. and even as an avid reader I can say, being delusional it's fine (lol) but she was just.. making me not wanting to keep reading. the second hand embarrassment was strong. and I know it's hypocritical to say this about her when I was defending her whole personality but I like to think how nothing in excess is good–and with her came that insane thoughts and ideas maybe a 15 year old could have. to be honest she sometimes made me think of a chronically online persona like.. girl just no. take a walk, breath some air, don't. just don't.

I didn't like the second chance thing just because I fucking hate second chance troupe but it was funny at times and I liked how it showed different paths you could take in life and how sometimes the memories are better than reality, it was such a realistically take–let some things die in your memoires.

anyway overall I did enjoy the book, I mean the first 20% bored me and the last 10% was not unbearable but I just wanted to finish it already.