This is more like a fangirling mess so read at your own caution

This is like the 10 millionth time I've read this book and I still love it just as much as the first time. I've seriously lost track of how many times I've read this series because my 8th-12th grade self was OBSESSED! I used to take them everywhere and me and my friend would talk about them and would write all over our band folder about them. We even wrote multiple fanfiction/spin-offs about it.

Spoiler

Suze is just all around great. She's funny, smart, confident, kickass...She's everything I want to be. And I love her relationships with everyone, my favorites being obviously Jesse and Father Dom. I'd actually forgotten how much I love Father Dom, how he'd call her at home having one of the nuns pretend to be a school friend, his sage mediator advice, his kind of fatherly/mentor role. He's the best. And Jesse...I was shocked to realize how little there was of him in this book, I'm just so used to him being there all the time but Suze and him only had a handful of interactions throughout the book. But that didn't stop me from falling in love with him all over again.

Things I Need In Life:
1. I need to know Jesse's first impression of Suze. I mean first he's just like omg she can see me and then she's just like "get the hell out of my room!". Girls are quite a bit different than back in your day bud. And then there was that whole "stalking" scene, lol.
2. When does Jesse fall in love with Suze?? Like I take it as a gradual incline between them both throughout the series but at the end they're having a conversation and they're both taking steps towards each other, like they're being drawn together. I wanna know the exact point in time he realizes he has feelings for her.
3. Obviously I just need more Mediator in my life WHICH IS WHY I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE NEW BOOK!!!! LIKE OMG WE'RE GETTING A NEW BOOK!! AFTER ALL THIS TIME! DREAMS DO COME TRUE!!