spoilers 

 

You guys, I was ABSOLUTELY sucked into this book in just the first chapter. I was dying of laughter. Then the charisma and spiciness of Jaxon was so freaking much but AMAZING. But then we got to see his vulnerable side and being terrified of being replaced and I immediately fell in love with this man 😭. But then he just had to go and be so sweet, thoughtful, and considerate to Lennox 😩. Like he not only remembered she had a nut allergy from her bracelet in Cabo, but when she went into anaphylactic shock, he stayed with her for four hours in the hospital and offered her a place to stay when her apartment was in shambles. BUT THEN, he noticed all of her little struggles in his apartment like being too cold, struggling to reach the top shelves, not having enough shower space for her products, and getting emotional, he remedied all of that INSTANTLY. But the part that absolutely KILLED ME was when he created a guide for her on how to make coffee, how to use the coffee machine, different recipes and cereal pairings 😭😭😭. It’s just the first twelve chapters when this happens and I’m absolutely done for, Becka Mack has truly outdone herself 😩🫶. And then he makes sure she had the best birthday by giving her everything she wanted to see, especially to go see the Northern Lights. Then, I love how they’ve bonded with each others family 🥹. Then the best part of all, I’m so glad Lennon and everyone else, plus the kids, never gave up on Jaxon and showed him how much he was loved 

 

Then, the story about Bryce hurt my heart, but the way Lennon comforted him was perfect. And then what broke my heart and put it back completely was when Lennon helped Jaxon reunite with Bryce’s parents and they followed his career ever since his debut game and they kept the ticket stubs from each game they went from all the teams he’s been on 😭😭. Then Sarah, the kid that Jaxon spent time with at Second Chance homes is going to be adopted by Bryce’s parents 😭😭, so now Jaxon will always be in Sarah’s life 😭. 

 

<b> <u>Favorite quotes/scenes:</b> </u> 

I can’t believe I left my fucking cat for this. 

“Stop looking at me that way!” 

“What way?” 

“With your eyes!” 

“Sorry I have eyes on my face!” 

 

One thing about me? I’m gonna serenade my cat every chance I get so he knows how much I love him. “Silly kitty, chunky kitty, I kiss your tiny nose. Fluffy kitty, handsome kitty, I love your extra toes.” 

 

“You’re fucking naked, Jaxon! And while Magic Mike and his backup dancers are swinging about, you’re standing there, casually eating your cereal and talking about a fictional character getting DP’d in a parking lot!” 

“This is who I am, Lennon! If you can’t appreciate us”—another jab at his crotch, followed by one toward the door—“ then there’s the door! Don’t let it hit your ass on the way out!” 

“Oh my God. You are so fucking weird. Why do I like it so much?” 

“Gran says I’m endearing.” 

 

“Jaxon is . . . living. Fresh air. An endless sky dotted with possibilities. He’s the deep breath before a scary step, the thundering of your pulse as you close your eyes and jump. He’s life beyond four suffocating walls, where stepping outside is like seeing in color for the first time.” 

 

“I thought you liked quiet.” 

“Before you, maybe.” 

“And now?” 

“Now I like loud.” 

 

“Do you see those three bright stars in a straight line? That’s Orion’s belt. Follow it down, and just there, right above the horizon, do you see?” 

“The big, bright star?” 

“That’s Sirius, the brightest star in the sky. When you’re looking for Bryce in the stars, look there. He’ll light even the darkest nights.” 

 

“I’m looking at her like . . . I’m looking at her like she’s the sunset, and I’m seeing it in color for the very first time.” 

 

“Finding my best friend and soulmate in him was serendipitous, and he’s made me feel like sunshine every step of the way. I love you.” (Jennie) 

 

“Hey, Carter. Remember how I said I was looking for those Oreo cupcakes for you in the back ten minutes ago?” 

“Yeah . . .” 

“I lied. I was looking for your sister’s G-spot with my tongue.” He snickers. “Found it.” 

“You motherfucker!” 

“I believe sisterfucker is the word you’re looking for.” 

 

“You feel like Jaxon. Like Adam, and Rosie, and Connor too.” “Yeah? How’s that?” 

“Warm and safe. Like sunshine in a hug.” 

 

“Dance with me, honey.” 

“W-why?” 

“Because everyone else got a chance to spin you around today. Because I wanted to, but until right now, I didn’t have the courage to ask. Because I missed having you in my arms. Because I missed you.” 

“And the lights? The stars?” 

“You deserve to have the things you love most at the tips of your fingers, honey. This is for the cloudy days. The rainy days and the cold days. The lazy days better spent in bed, and the days I keep you there, if you’ll let me.” 

 

“Looking at you, knowing you exist in my world, that you could be mine one day and gone the next, is the most overwhelming thing I’ve ever felt.” 

 

“Lennon is mine. My best friend, the hand in mine, the weight lifted off my chest. She’s the sunrise when I spent too many years in the dark, and breathing easier for the first time since I was a kid.” 

 

“I’ll wait, Jaxon. I don’t care how long. Because this? This is a once-in-a-lifetime feeling. You’re a once-in-a-lifetime find. I’m not walking away.” 

 

“Oh, hey. My mom told me to tell you she can’t make your date tonight. She’s busy, and also, she doesn’t wanna.” 

“Oh, hey. Your mom told me to tell you she can’t make it to your place for breakfast tomorrow morning. She’s busy, and also, she’s my breakfast.” 

“How dare you! Holly Beckett is an angel!” 

“Holly Beckett is my angel!” 

 

“I wanna be the one who drives you out to the middle of nowhere at midnight just to fucking stare at you while you stare at the stars, because somehow, in this whole huge world, I got lucky enough to find you, not once, but twice? You want me to ask you to stay, Lennon? To tell you I’m in love with you? Here it is, honey. I love you. I am so goddamn, mind-blowingly in love with you, and the thought of losing you is killing me. I don’t want you to go. This place only feels like a home when you’re here.” 

 

“Where did you come from? How did you walk into my world out of nowhere and knock it off its axis? I took one look at you and started falling, terrified every damn moment, from the top right down to the bottom. But you were there. You were always there, honey. Thank you for falling with me. I don’t think I could’ve survived falling alone.” 

 

“Being with you feels like the first time I looked through your telescope. It feels like seeing fifty million stars when I’d only ever been able to see ten thousand. It feels like an impossible rainbow of lights dancing through a black night. Like a storm that’s been living for hundreds of years, and meteors falling from the sky. Love feels like looking at you and not understanding how something as beautiful as everything you are exists, but just accepting that it does, because a world without you means a world without light.” 

 

“Life was so tough for you as a hot, successful, single dad.” 

“You don’t know what it’s like out there, Len. Vultures everywhere, trying to get a piece of us. We’re lucky to have made it out alive.” He sniffles. “I could really use a blow job right now.” 

 

“I love you, honey. And loving you, being loved by you . . . it’s worth every fucking heartache. I’d do it all over again if it meant I got you in the end.” 

“You’ve got me. In this lifetime and the next.” 

“In every lifetime, honey.”