THIS WAS THE BEST BOOK I HAVE EVER READ. LIKE DEFINITELY IN MY TOP 5. THIS BOOK HAD ME SMILING UNTIL MY CHEEKS HURT, GIGGLING, FEET KICKING IN THE AIR, HEART BURSTING AT THEIR CUTENESS!!! TO GIVE THIS BOOK 5 STARS WOULD BE DOING IT AN INJUSTICE. IT QUITE LITERALLY DESERVES ALL THE STARS. I MEAN WHO DOESN’T LOVE A FORBIDDEN ROMANCE BETWEEN STEP-SIBLINGS!! IF THIS BOOK IS IN YOUR TBR OR HAS YET TO BE IN YOUR TBR, YOU NEED TO MOVE IT UP LIKE NOW!!

Of course, this is about two new stepbrothers who hate each other. We have Avi, the “emo” carefree, funny artist who did drugs. And his opposite, Kyran who was the popular quarterback. And I love that from the point of their meeting to the end was over the span of four years. Talk about a SLOW BURN. These two stepbrothers find themselves in a predicament where they need LOTS of money and quick, to pay for their tuition. And Avi finds OnlyFans, and he comes to the decision that solo work only helps a little and he needs to find a partner for his videos.

I love that we got to see their journey of doing this “For the Fans” to falling in love which I feel that phrase doesn’t serve them justice. It was a bi/gay awakening, and it was BEAUTIFUL to experience. We have Avi who is going with the flow and letting himself fall prey to his emotions, and we have Kyran who is fighting his feelings due to something in his past. I loved seeing the little things between them that represented their relationship coming together throughout this experience. Like Kyran initiating their meetups, Avi taking charge, Avi’s love and support for Kyran first as a brother then as his partner. THE DIRTY TALK!! THESE MEN HAVE FILTHY MOUTHS!! Their OnlyFans and Instagram handles. And then when Kyran finally lets go and accepts his feelings and tells EVERYONE that he’s in love with Avi!! I’m not lying when I say I loved every single tiny second of this book.

Favorite quotes/scenes:

-"I just see Avi. The guy who’s seen parts of me no one else has. The guy who never stops smiling at me, no matter how mean I am to him. The guy with snowflakes on his eyelashes, who brought me my coat last night."(Kyran)

-"With the craziest wave of need crashing over me, I’m reaching out like I want to hold his hand. I’ve completely forgotten that we’re surrounded by people and drama and impending doom. I’m just staring at him, and he’s staring at me like he wants the same things I do...To dance with me. I just want to slow dance with him…Because he never got to in high school.Of all the firsts we’ve had together, it feels like one I’m desperate to have with him." (Kyran)

-"It was never for the money, or for BC… Or for the fans. It was for you, Kyran. For fucking you, and that’s it. Every single thing I did… I did for you. To have you. Maybe I didn’t know it at first…But the truth is that it could have been anyone in those videos with me. But I wanted you. I think I have for a long time… I didn’t understand it, but you hating me just made me want to chase you. And then you started coming to me. And you’re just the best, most unexpected thing that’s ever showed up at my door."

-"Baby, I think I’m in love with you. Say it back, Avi. Don’t be a jerk."
"Just let me revel in this a little more…"
"Fuck off."
"I’m in love with you. And I’m pretty sure I have been since the moment we met."

-"I don't want to dull my senses anymore… I want to experience every single second of being in love with him. Because I’ve never been in love before, and being in it with Kyran Harbor is like going on a tour of Willy Wonka’s Chocolate Factory. You want to be fully present so you don’t miss out on any of the wonder…"

-"The real Kyran Harbor wouldn’t be alive without Avi Vega. He’s my reason, my rescue."

-"My angel saved me. He rescued me from hiding. He held me when I needed him, and he loved me when I didn’t. He’s selfless, real…just a brilliant, beautiful fucking weirdo. I’m in love with an angel…And his name is Avi."

"You’re worth all the time in the world, baby, I would’ve waited years for you." (Avi)