A review by phidelia
My Heart and Other Black Holes by Jasmine Warga

3.0

 
This book exactly depicts how it feels to have depression (atleast how it felt like for me JK, I never had depression. No, I had..not. Let's not talk about it-)

Depression is like a heaviness that you can't ever escape. It crushes down on you, making even the smallest things like tying your shoes or chewing on toast seem like a twenty-mile hike uphill. Depression is a part of you; it's in your bones and your blood. If I know anything about it, this is what I know: It's impossible to escape.


What people never understand is that depression isn't about the outside; it's about the inside. Something inside me is wrong. Sure, there are things in my life that make me feel alone, but nothing makes me feel more isolated and terrified than my own voice in my head.


This book had so, so much potential, on its grounds of relatable characters (Aysel, in particular).
Very personal thoughts:[, and her thoughts were literally almost like mine (eg: physics + depression). I completely understood where she was coming from. I didn't feel very sad, per se, but I definitely did feel like I could relate. Though, don't worry I haven't lost anyone. Maybe I did? Let's forget about me! (hide spoiler)].
Aysel's inner thoughts felt very true to her situation and worked well with a topic as heavy as this.

However, I DID NOT LIKE THE ENDING AT ALL. NOPE. THIS IS WHAT I HATE IN THESE KIND OF BOOKS. I hate the romanticizing of the situation. I hate that "love cures it all." I hate it. I hate it. I freaking hate it. That is not real life. I hate it.

Here, in this book, particularly, the romanticizing didn't work out (sometimes it does, although, but NOT HERE), and I was hoping for more...depth, IDK? (like how she overcame it and actually found some thing worth living for not dying for. That's a huge difference. Trust me, I know.); and, redemption?
And, I get it- seeking for connection is something a lot of people hope for, but nope, not this way.
So, a 2.5 ⭐.

~Non Plus Ultra.~