I am shaking, I am actually shaking. I can't type so you won't get a review. I cried, my eyes watered. This entire thing was too much.

Also, Ruhn should have a wheelchair for carrying most of this book on his back and for being one of the best new characters Sarah has ever created. Best character development and best romance in the entire book.

Also I don't think I will be able to sleep tonight

Ok, now that I calmed down a bit, here are my SPOILER FREE brutally honest and final thoughts.

I love Sarah's writing, that's a given, but this book could have been at least 300 pages shorter.

Sarah repeats the same recipe way too much. Do I still love that recipe and am I going to continue to read her books until I die? Yes.

But no, this was actually one of her weakest books overall. First half was a little boring and repetitive but she always makes up by making me care way too much for other characters, like Ruhn or by ending it with a mindblowing cliffhanger, like this one.

Sarah's smart, she knows what this means to us. Will the ending get you to stare at a wall for 2h? Yes. This book would have been a four start for me but it turned into five because she literally did this on purpose.

I immediately guessed and knew what was up.

So yeah, overall satisfied but I feel emotionally manipulated into giving this five stars.

Now we have to wait almost two years for the next one and honestly? I am ok with it. Sarah drains me emotionally and physically, she makes me care way too much. My entire body reacted in ways I can't even explain, that's the shit she does.

Also full disclosure? 200% more sex than crescent city? yes. Still 300% less sex than she put in A Court of Silver Flames. There are some very cute and naughty and fun scenes, but compared to Nessian? They're nothing.

I honestly feel relieved, I can finally move on and I am ok with waiting for the next one. Sarah drains me because she makes me care way too fucking much, loved it tho. Feels nice to be played emotionally