From the first few chapters I thought I was going to fall in love with this book. There was intrigue, beautiful writing, and a really interesting cast of characters. It's the story of Otis, whose best friend and next door neighbour, Meg, moved away suddenly after an unforeseen incident. Otis is left devastated and in mourning for his little brother, and the girl he used to love. In the three years Meg is gone, Otis takes up swimming, coached by Dara the Scandinavian swimming goddess who lost an arm and had to give up her Olympic dreams.

I liked Otis' voice...until he started describing every girl's breasts whenever he met them. The male gaze is disgusting, and those moments made me realise why I often steer clear of hetero male protagonists. Otherwise, Otis fits in with the heroes in the writing of John Green, Robyn Snyder, and Jeff Zentner.

Unfortunately, that's not the only reason I didn't click with Phantom Limbs . I felt like the emotional tone was one note. It was the same level of sadness, trepidation and guilt the whole way through. There weren't enough, I don't know, light hearted, happy moments to encourage me to keep reading. The whole thing was a bit depressing, if I'm honest. There's supposed to be this slow build up to reveal the exact details of Mason's death and why Meg moved away but I'd vaguely put things together way before they were confirmed, so I'd lost the hook of the story.

As for character development, I was frustrated with both Meg and Otis as they were both consumed by the past. Obviously coming together again stirred up old emotions, but it didn't feel like they were good for one another. Meg brought out Otis' jealous, self-conscious side and it was difficult to read about characters who regressed instead.

Phantom Limbs is pretty romance heavy, even though Meg has a boyfriend already. Those kind of blurred moral lines always make me feel a bit uncomfortable but it added to the general teen angst Otis was feeling, and that was the only change of pace in the story, but the trivial glimpses into his hometown life didn't always match well with the nostalgic tone. It's like Otis couldn't progress with two feelings at once.

I also can't help but mention the LGBT+ aspect of the story. I'm not sure what Dara identifies as, even though Otis and Meg (who'd only met her a couple of times throughout the story) were OBSESSED with trying to label her as a lesbian. You know what, guys? It doesn't matter. (Louder now for the ones at the back) IT DOESN'T MATTER. Why the heck these two were talking about Dara's sexuality behind her back in their own free time, I couldn't tell you. And don't get me started on Meg's 'I knew she was a lesbian!' at the end. Like, well done? Do you want a prize? I would kindly like to ask for this trope to die in 2018.

Dara as a whole was a very interesting sub-plot. It did what all great sub plots are meant to do, distract you from the main plot at convenient times but still be interlinked enough that it doesn't seem obvious that that's what's happening. Still, at times I wasn't sure if this was supposed to be Otis' or Dara's story. And I have to admit, that at some points, I hoped it was the latter. Is it wrong to say that I probably cared about Dara the most over all? I'm not sure how, but I had a much stronger emotional connection to her. Dara and Otis had both lost a part of themselves, but from reading this books, I've realised I'd much prefer to read about the lesbian amputee sticking it to the man.

I didn't particularly like what the ending suggested, but I still can't bring myself to give it less than three stars because the opening showed so much promise. If you liked any of the comp authors I mentioned earlier, then I'd definitely give this one a go.