I hate the back of this book--"he's a committed Christian . . . BUT ALSO GAY?!?!?" Please calm down. That being said, the contents of this book are so good. Coles describes his personal journey as a missionary kid, worship leader, and person wrestling with his sexuality. His choice to be celibate is a lonely one and a brave one. He makes it clear throughout the book that this is his choice, his lifestyle, that he doesn't want to be used as a weapon by straight folks against other people in the LBGTQ+ community. My heart broke for Coles as he described his loneliness and the painful journey he is on. But he also filled me with hope. This is a really good memoir.